i suddenly thought of this.
ytd went home with ivy.
she made me remind things that related to you.
i think of you doing silly stuffs for me.
you pei me not to drink cold drinks tgt when my hand is injured.
you waited for me till my cca finished. you pei me home.
you always bear with my stupid attitude.
i didnt know that you seems so important when you leave me.
its my fault for letting you go.
without you, i cant live my life happily.
all the laughter, i forced it out.
if i can have a chance to get back a thing i had lost, i want you.
i always think of the things you did for me. i was touched.
i admit i didnt cherish you in the past.
i was the one who initiated it.
i dont blame you cause i leave you when i even found out something.
i was super wrong.
i regret initiating the -----.
i dont know why i always angry with you.
if i know this day will happen, i wont angry in the first place.
i will cherish you.
you were so good to me yet i treated you badly.
you are a good boyfriend. (seriously)
im a fcuking bad girlfriend.
i got my retribution alr.
i hate myself now.
the best way for forgiving myself is to kill myself.
( i miss the time when we were tgt. i miss you, really. )

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